It’s seven pm, I’m having coffee at midnight
I w challenged w w people w saying; I feel that I’m lucky that they feel safe enough to say all their sh, tho yea. W watching Rin just now; playing Fort and sh.
Like I have said before, I like that I have done three things on the business and there are only seven on the list. I have a ton of keyword pairs as well. I just love 5.5, so helpful and the ability to do sh w|o learning anything is peak.
I realise that it is J
I w listening to Rag N Bone Man, and I w just aware that people may be like, have one in the chamber over certain people, so to speak, tho I’m starting to feel they may be right.
That’s a good way of putting it, that they have one in the chamber. Ima walk around doing my sh, and I hear something. I feel that when I’m around, they just pop off. Idk.
Idk how I feel about people being right, it hasn’t been long enough for that, yet. It’s challenge tho when two people are having beef w each other, Idk what side to take; so I just kinda ignore it I guess.
I feel that w a challenge, in days gone by, that people w be ripping seven shades of sh out of someone and I wouldn’t be able to relate.
Again, I must keep myself safe and all Ima say is so far so good. I should rly tell the team again.
This has changed my focus solely onto my mental health. I’m wondering w Ima do about it. I suppose, paradoxically that Ima be around people as much as I can; w|i reason, I only have a few clubs that Ima go to; plus maybe starting one this week.
I manage to eat healthy w is good. I just do the normal regular things like day to day, nothing special just making sure that I take care of myself, I feel. Hopefully I w be able to tidy up soon as Ima get something pressing out of the way.
Things are going well. As long as Ima deal, I’m okay. Getting off the medication is high priority for me; drawn by the reality that once off it, none of these things be a challenge anymore; it’s tantalising.
I am at peace w the path I’m on, things get better month on month w me being more in the reality I want. Authentically I must commit; I committed a long time ago. I like who I have become and want to be this person more. I rly wanna be who I wanna be.
Holding such change is a lot tho, probably why I keep it on the daily.
Again, J’s commandments are w are, is, doing this. They are the shizzle, I feel. What else c actually change who I am, and I look at myself and just feel, wow.
Everyone goes through sh; and if I were not this person I w be going through sh anyways; w the hell, why not just ride this f wave. This is the right lens to see this though, I feel.
People seem to like this me as well, I feel. It’s better for me and it’s better for them, what’s not to like. I also don’t see much need for therapy tbh w all this going on. Nothing w harden me to people’s indignation than the way I live every day.
Never k life w like this, now I do. G bless everyone for dealing
To Dealing
K
Miss K 