Hey

It’s two pm, I’m having coffee at five

Not demoning it has rly become the theme.  I stuck fast to it all the way through my group.  On the way home w a bit of a challenge feeling like someone had said something, w made me make sure that I didn’t demon it all the while I w walking, and in the shop.

It worked and I w surprised at how well I c function and how people saying the random things they do didn’t challenge me.

And

I kinda guess that that is w empathy is, this voice in my head telling me to not demon it; something that all normal people have, and now I have joined them.

Felt kinda tearful at group w the awareness that people seem so much more human to me now; just the ability to like being around them, felt like a lot.  Ima be honest, I feel it’s love.

I’ve just had coffee

I had a look at the iPad Mini; tho I feel it w be better to get one in September, bc it w be the same price.  I may go for an Amazon Renewed one tho.

I just watched a Darklite ASMR; w w super tingly, with the sticks.

I’m just about the right temperature, sitting in front of an air cooler, it has been thundering today.

Feeling like having ginseng again.  The way it makes me feel, is inappropriate to say; and that’s why I like it; it’s just the buzz of people looking at me, knowing that I feel that way.

It comes, rly, from feeling that my symptoms have calmed down; enough for me to appreciate something that otherwise would leave me a little bit destabilised.

It also makes me feel like Ima smash it into orbit, around the business.

Is the feeling grandiose.  Ima be honest, it kinda is.  It feels like being in that kinda energy is something so f fire that I just feel glowing w the vibe.

It’s a different reality, maybe a little overconfident; tho it’s a feeling and not thought.  If it were words in my head, telling me the old adage of it’s definitely gonna work this time.. tho like I say, a feeling and again f fire.

Self esteem never lies.  Should I feel that Ima do something, again a feeling and not a thought, that feeling is always right.  It stems from just believing that I am way easily worthy of being that person, as much as anybody else.

In Other News

I have been using AI, to find the reviews that Ima show on my page.  The things that need to be done are dwindling to the point where Ima open Hostinger and drag and drop that sh right in.

I changed my username on Insta to match the deal.

It’s no longer my focus tho.  I felt myself move backwards into my teens, feeling like getting bullied.  It w like a switch; believing that cellular regeneration is rly unfettered now.

Every now and then feeling like, surely Ima say something when people say that sh.  I must allow them to be adults, for them to allow me to be a kid; that’s the cold hard truth of it.

To Being A Kid

K