It’s one thirty pm, Ima have coffee at six
I found a new thing. I noticed it when I w struggling to keep my head together, after feeling triggered. It’s like this need to figure something out that w stop the feeling.
I took this idea and applied it to my every day life, just keeping the taste of that kind of thought and staying away from it. I feel it worked. I w doing it today. I guess it comes down to a kind of worry tho it’s a certain kind of worry; sort of analysing trying to figure things out.
Sometimes I’m challenged w thinking sh about people and that upsets me and leads to a trigger. Ima try and not do it tho the thought pops out.
My mind w going there rn. I had tried to make an image for my product section and forgot actually for 5.5 to make an image. Idk why my mind w challenged w such terror over it tho I nipped it in the bud.
I feel my mind developing right before my every eyes, w healthy coping methods just appearing in the absence of the unhealthy stuff. I thought to myself, w did no one tell me this.
I got some Chinese food, I thought I c have it for lunch. Takes fourteen minutes in the pan. It didn’t tell me how to season so Ima put some Sesame oil and Garlic and taste it and then maybe put soy sauce.
I thought about making a video of me making it and post it on YouTube.
Just had lunch; a sub; vegan
I today, worked on the business; while I w out. I did like that one piece, asking 5.5 to select items to put in an image and then make the image tho forgot to tell it, like I said. The whole prompt w there just not the command to make the image.
Ima be honest; now and then I feel like Ima die; like just drop dead, not through anything else. It’s upsetting.
The feelings of yesterday are totally gone tho they may be back. When reducing my medication I kinda phase in and out of it. I hope I don’t relapse. Tbh I feel that it is caused by evil things that people say. It sets me off and then I become ill, I feel.
I just had a parcel delivered
I honestly feel that people say more and more of this evil sh when I am weakened w someone having already said stuff. I feel that it builds and that’s from where the damage comes. That paints people out to be pretty nasty, Idk.
That’s one of those analytical things that I don’t think, whether that is true. Like I said, I w stay away from thoughts that f me up.
I just need a few days or couple of weeks to k whether Ima cope w my life.
To Coping
K
Miss K 