Hey

It’s three pm, Ima have coffee at six

I feel that every bit of abuse is down to people not wanting to rip; so they rip someone else.  They may not even k that that is w they are doing, I feel.  That’s a whole rabbit hole and I just went down it tho Ima not go there.  I mustn’t judge.

I asked myself w do I w out of this; w is my end goal.  I remember when I w young; and I thought w that something that I wanna go back to; w it something that actually wasn’t as good as I remember it.  I guess it w and it wasn’t.

I feel myself becoming more into my reality; the feelings of when I w young just forming more and more.  C it be possible that it leads right there.

I feel that one issue for me is that I kinda don’t trust how it w be this time.  I w have self esteem this time, it w be like being young tho w self esteem.  I don’t feel I had any and feel kinda apprehensive at having it.  It’s an unknown.

I then thought to myself, Ima be real w me; I actually feel that it w be way better.

In Other News

I got two bean plants, that w cross pollenate, to put in the garden.  They got kinda dinged up on the way home tho they look kinda alright.  Ima get a kitchen knife and dig a hole in the ground and then water them in.  Getting some kinda pole to put them around is something that I w have to worry about at the right time.

I made Biryani tho feel that next time Ima give the butter a miss, it w gross as f I, feel.  I c smell it in the pan and it w horrid, I felt.  I w surprised that it didn’t have any veg in it; it w just meat and onions.

I had to go for the first recipe I saw, except I wasn’t gonna do the bbcgoodfood one bc I don’t like the way their dishes look.

I’m vegetarian btw.

I got ten pounds out of the Post Office on the way home for paying for clubs; and bought some stuff in the shop so that I wouldn’t look cheap.

The Page

I had been kinda fighting w an image for a few days now.  I finally got it down.  I w gonna try and create it again tho had a look at the one it had done me and to my surprise it had done it right.  Now Ima use that Image, I don’t feel that there is much to do.

Ima think about Herod and how he w a very evil man, as bad as Hitler kinda.

So rly the thing went well of having like some kinda meal for lunch instead of sandwiches.  Like I said yesterday, I bought some meal that had chicken in it so Ima not eat it.

To Not Ripping People

K