Hey

It’s two thirty pm, I just had coffee

I felt I w harassed by a homeless man.  I felt scared, it w full on, I feel and I’m pretty sure, I feel, that he had a knife.

I just had to tell someone, so I did and they made sure that I w safe.

The thing w tho, that I felt something that rly shocked me.  I felt that that had been no more stressful than feeling that a lot of the strangers around me are talking to me.

I have to bring in not throwing my pearls to swine.  Yes, like I say I feel that it’s stressful when people Idk talk to me; tho Ima not tell them to stop.

I had a relapse a while back, bc, I felt, that I w telling people to not stare at me.  I don’t want another relapse, ergo Ima not tell them to stop it.

In Other News

I have so much more faith in the 5.5 landing page.  There w this one chat, where I asked a few questions and got hella answers.  I feel I’m doing all the things it suggested, so far and w continue to do.

I gots it all down, except the reviews, w I have.

I also figured something out; that when people talk to me they are speaking from Corticol awareness; i.e. it is all from judgement I feel.  I realise that I don’t need to k any of the things that seem so important to them, that they are seeking validation for in that moment, I feel.  I don’t need to have a mind that is full of judgement and have that brain jex.  I realised this this morning, I feel.

This whole town seems to feel that every man who does not sc his girlfriend or wife is gay.  These are typical things that I don’t even need to believe, I feel.  I thought that different towns w have different judgements about people; like everybody needs to be on the same page around the beliefs that they have, I feel.

Then

I just rang the Samaritans; bc I felt that my mental health w suffering and it helps.  Sometimes I hallucinate my TV telling me that Ima die and I don’t like that.  It happened a little bit as I ended the call.

I feel that I need to be very strong; bc Ima not be able to avoid this person and feel I w put myself in more danger from someone else if I do that; the law of increasing.  I am upset, ngl.

Feelings; feelings can be very strong sometimes.  It’s part and parcel of having empathy.  I feel I felt nothing, now I feel stuff like this.  Luckily I’ve felt extreme peril many times bc of my mental illness and hopefully this w give me the tools to deal.

To Empathy And Feelings

K