It’s about one pm, Ima just drink my cola
I felt like I w judging, like racism or something; all I w doing w thinking. It w like Rin explained yesterday, irrational thoughts similar or same as OCD; when she said, am I a phile. This w about nicking someone’s husband tho.
That’s when I told myself that these thoughts I’m thinking, feel like racism; yk how it’s just a slippery spiral into hell. I thought, oh boy, Ima hold it down. I actually won the game of Croquet, so it must have gone well, and had a good time. I’m back home now.
Walked past two Pakistanis who said that our society w cruel, everyone’s a grass, I feel. I thought about how I let Rin’s opinion in; rly only when she’s on; and thought I don’t vibe w racism so Ima just be open to it; for a hot millisecond and then let it go.
I also thought about psychopathy triggers, I mean cues. They are like social cues tho psychopathy. I feel that’s how people w ASBD manipulate; by following them. I get them and it’s a challenge to ignore them. I feel that’s w covers up my empathy around my Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder.
After yesterday’s, w I felt w serious verbal abuse, I just took it easy and didn’t work on the business. Ima hope to get it done tonight, as I am literally chomping to ask 5.5 , whether the Wireframe that she gave me w tuned for looking super duper ultra professional. That’s where hella conversions are hiding, I feel, and feel super lucky to have found that out.
It’s just asking her open questions, like every now and then something of rl value pops out.
I feel a bit like Ima die rn, it happens a lot.
Once I have that information Ik that Ima just pop everything in and it w work. I must ask her tho if all that she gave me is tuned for the professional look. It does work like that a lot; like she gave me a ton of copy and then she, at some point mentioned that it needs to be short for people to not bounce. I asked her to shorten everything in that context and it just.. like so much that I w able to do that.
The whole page, I like the way it feels. I asked her like, surely no one’s gonna read all that and she told me that they won’t and that they w skim through it, picking out the parts that appeal to them. I feel that’s where the majority of my trust comes from, the professional look. It may be worth handing it to a copy writer to hone it for that quality; won’t cost much, tho I may just run it first, Irdk.
I got an account for Fiverr and it allows me Pro as long as I spend like one grand this year. If it hits right out the get, then that c actually be likely to happen, just w make me more is all and be worth it. Also working w a copywriter just appeals to me so much, the collaboration and the delegation.
I like where it all is rn and as always, knowing that energy doesn’t lie just fills me w confidence ngl. As always not telling myself that it’s gonna work this time bc that is mondo toxic tho feeling the energy is the opposite of toxic and hella useful; pragmatically, actually helping me to make myself a winning shot.
To Openness
K
Miss K 