Hey

It’s two pm, Ima have coffee at six

I w judging people; I couldn’t help it; I’ve stopped now.  It started down Ferry Meadows.  Like three people complained about someone’s behavior; like on three separate occasions.  I w like, whose side do I take.  I then realized that that w be judging so I stopped worrying about it.

I w on the bus, someone w posing tho I ignored them and forgot about it, I felt.  I went shopping on the way home like I normally do.  When I got in I had to put my washing away before I c get something to eat.

I think this is relevant, bc everyone judges; my psychiatrist told me that, and being around it and hearing it all the time, it’s true.  I must become like them, in that it doesn’t bother me tho I must not judge myself.  I do kinda agree when Ima talk to my friends.

I am aware that there are always two sides.  When I hear people arguing Ima see that.  When someone disses someone right in front of me as often happens, I’m left kinda feeling like responsible for them being right, even tho it is none of my business.

I used to judge them as being evil, bc of hearing the hateful things they w say about people; tho that w me having hateful feelings towards them, I feel.  I feel I grew up w no self expression whatsoever, perhaps even no sense of self from anyone around me, I feel.  I feel I w never ever spoken to.  So I suppose that it w be hard, thrown in at the deep end w people bitching about this and that all the time, I felt and kinda still feel.

I used to get angry and want them to leave me the f alone, feeling like they were only doing it bc I w around and w have kept their mouth shut, feeling singled out and used as a verbal punching bag.

I suppose that empathy creeps in at some point; gradually kinda seeing their point of view.  There may be two sides tho maybe two can be right.  They both have feelings and expectations.  Conflict is something that Ima not even go there.

In Other News

I have been plugging through the page at a fair rate.  The Hero Section is all done aside from the CTA button.  I have some prototypes w Alpha Channels.  Ima just get 5.5 to change them slightly so that they say w I need to; when I find out what that is bc there is some confusion I feel.  It looks good, it looks great I feel.

I hope to catch Rin Playing Fort as I missed her last night.  Like I have said, I dip into the business every half an hour and then rest and collect myself.  Ima not tell myself that Ima get it done soon bc I feel that w be toxic.

I kinda thought about asking Tony Robbins if it rly is possible to make a killer landing page just by asking 5.5 open questions and questioning everything that it tells me; and giving my reasons why; then I thought to myself that Ima just put the page together and run it and then I w find out.

Rin’s got her one hundo thousand play button.  That’s fire as f; and she has that following on three platforms.  Does anyone have the slightest clue what an achievement that is.

To Rin

K