Hey

It’s half two pm, Ima have coffee at six

It kinda feels like letting go of judgement; entirely.  I feel a little challenged w w someone said, rn.

It kinda makes sense to me, that a reality w|o that w just be, pretty much like when I w younger.  It is kinda starting to feel that way.

I just didn’t judge the people outside.

In Other News

Ima work on the business today, like I did last week.  Dip into it every half an hour and.. just getting on w it and slowly building the page.  Like I said, I love how my Desire Section looks.  I have to look to see w negative things is said about the page tho.

It’s hot today.  I got the bus back.  I w lucky w the timing.  I didn’t want to leave it more then half an hour w my frozen vegan sausages.  I w in Waitrose and had three minutes to get through the checkout and slowly make my way to the bus station.

There w tons of people in the mall.  I wondered w that w.  I guess people are on their holiday.

Then

I just felt rly freaked out and super threatened.  I feel that Ima calm down now

Ima hope that I’m over the point, where Ima relapse based on people being themselves so f much that Ima not cope, I feel

Ima not feel that things a change any time soon.  Ima deal w so much more, tho it feels that people say and do, so much more.

Ima be honest.  It feels better; that people are able to be themselves; feels so f rewarding.  Ima not be one of these people who is offended by everything, I feel.

Idrk how to explain it; other than, it’s just more sanity to be able to deal w more, I feel.  Yes I struggle a bit just lately and get so scared, tho it feels like it has turned down a notch from making me hallucinate.

Ima honestly feel that this process is everything I have ever wanted and just wanna deal w the things people say, and feel I will.

And the crazy thing is is that, it makes me feel more aligned w the people who say sh, I feel bc I have opened and feel more where they are coming from.  It is literally bringing them to life, and w them, me also, I feel.

Appreciating a level of sanity that is rly rewarding, and hoping that people, not say more sh, tho carry on saying the same sh.  Ima not feel that it w escalate till it’s totally out of control; I feel there is a ceiling on it

To Coming To Life

K