It’s one thirty pm, Ima have Chamomile at six
I spent more time not judging today. I kept it going even tho for some reason I felt kinda a little messed up. I heard two people say that someone they k w a millionaire. It w like boom, boom, w|i like a couple of minutes. I had been feeling like one and I w scared that they were talking about me; a little tho not rly.
It w a vibe that started on the bus. I just started feeling that way like I already w one. It w a rly nice feeling and I rly couldn’t argue much w the energy. Later I had a moment of judging whether it w likely tho just dropped it. It felt unhealthy.
In Other News
I w having problems aligning stuff left this time, on Hostinger. Ima think that maybe there is some kinda rhyme or reason to why it does that and maybe Ima avoid it; I have no clue tho. Sometimes I’m just too intelligent for my own good and expect to be able to find out about things that probably no one has thought of; I feel.
Ima have my lunch in a couple of minutes. I guessed that I had bought bread yesterday so never got some more, I w right. I bought some Olive Oil and Milk bc I just didn’t want to come home w|o anything heavy. It meant tho that I didn’t look for a loo brush bc I w struggling a bit.
I feel my mental age coming down. I feel I understand the science behind it; I wonder if it c rly be right; Idc. Somehow in my heart I feel that J’s commandments are true. I feel it every day in the vibe that I feel from following them for so long. Even watching Rin, Idek how I w have been able to do that last year.
I now get ads that I feel are preying on older people. Like these two guys in the gym, I feel talking sh about this girls weight and that she can’t lose it; it felt derogatory as f, like emotionally abusing the person they want to buy from them; some sort of weight loss sh or something maybe.
I feel that I am moving in the right direction; kinda feeling younger and younger all the time. My consciousness just aligns more and more w the younger people. I feel that I don’t have to worry about feeling old ever again; just continue down this path and it w be less and less of a problem, I feel.
I never liked adult consciousness. I had tasted youth and wanted it back from my twenties onwards. I felt like I c remember being like sane or something like super dope. I guess I couldn’t feel it tho I always k it w there; I feel.
I never think about consciousness itself and what it feels like to be old versus w it feels like to be young. It’s such a mash. I don’t want to end up judging older people. Tbh they seem fine why worry about it, I feel.
Anyways, it’s up to them to follow the commandments if they wish. I guess they don’t; Idek if Ima say that; like who do I think I am to say that they don’t, how do Ik. I kinda feel that when they bi about people all the time Ik that they well do judge. Idk tho.
It could just be a shift in consciousness; one that I don’t want. Ima take the old one, it suited me better; and then the mash of 1999 and Charlie saying, Does anybody k how we did it back then. What if I find out, how they did it back then. Tbh I already feel that I am doing it that way; that’s a concept in and of itself.
To Regaining Youth Consciousness
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