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It’s two thirty pm, Ima have Chamomile at five

There w this guy in Town.  I judged that he w looking at me like a cheese sandwich or some bank numbers; and then let it go.  I remembered this artist who said that she, c not see the thief in this guy.  Later I felt kinda dope that Ima not be taken for an idiot; like people may look at me tho sure as sh they do not see me, I feel.

The vibes down Ferry Meadows reminded me of when I w like at a visit to the.. Idk the museum in London; or something.  It’s the Science Museum.

Thinking about the two consciousnesses, adult and youth.  How they differ entirely in my mind; like how once a path is on on one way or the other, the journey is there till completion; rly.  Youth has a stopping point, being an adult.. I suppose, that has one as well tho one that I don’t want to get to.

It’s rly if Ima deal w w people say.  How bad are the triggers and are they manageable.  They feel like they are, so I deem it appropriate to carry on w this.  Yes sometimes I feel like Ima die; I hallucinate things telling me that Ima die.  Is it me reliving abuse where I felt like I w gonna die.  Is it my hedgehog pathway opening and my body being in shock bc of it.  Either or, it has to be better than death and better than the infirmities of being old.

I feel that the time may come, where I feel like an immortal.  The time came when I felt like a millionaire.  It’s not an endpoint, it’s just a feeling that matches the energy of the sh I am f w.  I have a lot of faith in that tho feel unphased by such.. Idk, I mean most people would feel it seriously grandiose and I get that tho it’s just being healthy.  Like is being healthy a f crime, so stop looking at me, I feel; or will feel when that sh rly starts to happen on the regular.

There are always new triggers to replace the old ones, and tbh the old ones hold on like f limpets and refuse to shuffle off this mortal coil.

And then w people even notice; aren’t you a bit young for fifty one.  This may sound f up tho I honestly feel that they won’t even be able to see it.

In Other News

The business is on hold for today, again.  There is so much sh that Ima take a look at, that I have no idea w to do next.  I want to make a memo of where I am w sh, tho just feel like Ima mash going there on my day off.

I did make one small voice recording; saying there are things that increase conversions, that have nothing to do w the Mechanism or Reviews.  Things like more white space and premium tho not corporate feel.  Are there any other things like this, that may ad mojo to my page.  There w also be things w|i those sections that I mentioned, that don’t have anything to do w the sections themselves.

I went to croquet and they hadn’t even told me I feel, that they were coming in early today.  No email.  Disappointed as f.  Not the best.

To Conversions and 5.5

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