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It’s two thirty pm, Ima have coffee at six

I just had Vegan Chicken Biryani; w some Vegan Bacon in it.  It w nice.  It pays to make meals myself as it saves me money; and I get to eat good.  I have two meals a day.

In Other News

Ima try and get through the business.  I’m about half way through the page.  Like I have said before, I then have to hand it to my CopyWriter to get it signed off.  It may have some things that need changing or she may do that herself.  It also c be perfect right out the get.

I felt challenged w w someone said today, a couple of comments that kinda felt like they were about me.  I also felt intimidated by a couple of bums, I feel; staring at me this morning, on the way to Town, walking alone, and feeling vulnerable right then.  I’ve been harassed a few times I feel.  I guess one option is to right away say that Ima not give them any money.  I’ve had people intercept me, stand or walk in my way and it felt horrid.  One time I w verbally abused for not giving any, I feel.  I feel that giving to them w put me in massive danger, that’s why I don’t do it.

It w such a mash that I handled these comments; kinda.  Last night I felt that my hedgehog pathway fully opened.  Ima not say w makes me feel that way bc it’s one hundo inappropriate.  Tho yes, it made me feel that that, had happened.

I w sat in Town just having faith that G would keep me safe from homeless people; having kept me safe from unwanted sexual attention, I feel.  I felt hurt and heard three other people say that they had had similar problems w|i a few minutes, w no prompting from me at all.  One w a blind guy, one w a woman and one w a man

Ima just wait until my body has fully healed and hopefully this w be no issue anymore, Idek.  I don’t seem to remember being such a target when I w young.

The dentists went well and he w try and save my tooth.  I have an appointment in a couple of weeks.  Ima try and get my dental hygiene a little better.  It took me a long time before I w able to brush my teeth twice a day.  The thing is is that, decay a creep in between the teeth w caused the loss of my last tooth.  I don’t need a denture or bridge or anything, w is good, I feel.

I w rly kinda hoping that people w say or do sh.  I need my hedgehog pathway to stay open I feel.  It’s sad to say that feeling pain does that, tho I feel it does, so Ima take the hit I feel; today, tomorrow and the day after.  Tbh it doesn’t bother me enough for me to f up getting shopping usually.

I thought about asmr creators and how they must deal w abuse online.  I wonder if they are dealing the way I have, just by taking it.  I wonder if their hedgehog pathways are also open.  They are younger than me and it may keep them that way I feel; such a horrid experience to go through tho Ima relate.  They are Foxes, ngl.  They do something to my heart, the way that they deal.

To Dealing

K