It’s two thirty pm, Ima have coffee at six
A bum.. I feel, screamed his lungs at me this morning twice bc I declined, didn’t tell him the time, I feel. It kinda framed things for me that people w going to extreme lengths to take advantage of me, I felt, feel. I felt like it had happened for a reason. Later I found an airer put right next to my door and felt scared that it w there bc someone w trying to make out like it w mine. I felt scared that it w an attempt to use me, as I had had a package stolen and this happened after new people started going round there, my neighbour had had one stolen as well. I felt that this verbal abuse had happened bc G w trying to tell me that I needed to be careful of being used, so that I just texted straight away telling someone w I w scared that might be going on, I feel.
I feel that users w kill if I allow them to take everything from me. It’s a constant battle w verbally abusive bums, I feel w just trying to keep them at bay and not have my very self stolen by them. I feel that if I have to give to one then I have to give to everyone and that w end in my death; so it’s no joke and I felt that I needed to take care of it.
In Other News
Chomping to get on w the business, kinda scared that I w need to move as soon as possible that I have users for neighbours, I feel atm. I must take my time w it tho I feel. It seems to be a problem that solves itself. Every time I work on it, I seem to get the help I need. Ima not assume tho that it w be all plain sailing. Things sporadically go wrong and there is no way round that. It w be nice tho to get the page built bc I just wanna get things running.
I rly am in a mood to moan so must temper, slow, my feelings of indignation, being wronged. Ima be honest, it feels like the more I follow J’s commandments, the more stuff I have to deal w. Ima hope that strong boundaries w just make the whole thing go away. I kinda feel that this town is like that, that people have to be very no take sh off people, just to keep their heads above water, not be someone’s bi.
I guess that w hard for me, not knowing how to take care of myself. I suppose that it caused a lot of anxiety, I feel. To keep out of further anxiety I feel I have taken the right action tho if my fears are true then they w just keep on trying to use me and I w have to move the f out of here.
This is a deprived town, need I say anymore.
I must not hate them. I just feel that is eww. I guess I don’t feel safe in my own Town rn. It feels somewhat like the walls are closing in. I walk a lot of places and need to be safe. Homeless people it feels like threaten that safety. I must not judge that they shouldn’t be scaring me like that. I feel I must be strong and just take whatever they a dish out. Tho there are limits and if not safe in my home then I w move, I feel.
Quelling the anger rn. Hopefully things are not as I see them tho I must prepare for if they are. I literally gave up listening to peril. I have to say that this doesn’t bother me one bit; tho at the same time, again, I must be prepared.
Ik that schizophrenic heroin addicts do kill. There have been a couple of shocking murders that Ik of, that illustrate that point I feel. Tho again, I c rly care less. I feel that G w keep me safe as a baby. Ik that on creating this universe he c have worked every single event that ever happened to ensure that I escape any harm.
Ima actually question whether I wanna live here rn. Lets play devils advocate and say that things w always continue as they are; that being said I kinda do not, I feel. The thing tho around these commandments is that I feel they are telling me to be super tolerant of just what feels like evil tbh. That I have recently discovered is my power; that the more I deal w the more my hedgehog pathway opens up and the younger I look and feel, I feel.
So rly through that lens Ima just accept that people can be downright evil sometimes I feel and just ignore it, tho again, take steps to protect myself from people that tbh I feel are swine.
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