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It’s half three pm, Ima have coffee at five

I had this total mash in the shop.  I felt like they were picking on someone, trying to rip him by saying C.O.D to the customers.  Twice I head someone say, that’s a rip, I felt.  I kinda said to myself well maybe they do do C.O.D Idk.

I then started asking myself well exactly how evil are people and how far w they go.  I feel a little unsettled over it rn.

I liked being at Knitting Today.  I never ripped all day until this little rip just now; if Ima call it that.

It leaves me asking is it w people do to someone, that gives them mental illness or is it the illness that makes people treat them the way they do.  It’s a bit like the chicken and the egg.  And what about people who have been abused; do they get picked on and kept down, kept in that personality disorder or whatever they have.

In Other News

I found a way to fasten my bracelet; w buttons; they w be very small ones, I’ve heard that they are on sale somewhere tho it w mean travel.  I guess Ima just buy some on Amazon.

Ima just say w is on my mind; do they pick on people who are following J’s commandments and how far do they go; bc I have maybe been through that and kinda w wondering whether they had caused the relapse that I had, where I feel I got Anthrax.

Ik that Ima not worry about it or judge either way.  I guess G w judge them if they have done wrong and I don’t need to worry about it.

There w Tombs in the New Testament that were filled w the bodies of the prophets.  Did they get bullied to death; and if so do they do that today.

Tbh I’m totally open to they might be saying evil sh about me sometimes or they may just be saying sh about other people, Irdk.  I have to say that at this juncture, time, It feels like they were just saying sh about other people.

I w chomping like f to get on w the business today tho I got back late and have an appointment in a bit; maybe tomorrow.  I want to get some tidying up done w is likely to happen.  I also need to finish up sorting my taxes.

Oh, I almost forgot.

When I w twenty one or twenty two.. I had this phantasy that I w have a magic gu that I c sh anybody I liked w that w given me by G to sort out those who may or not be varmints.  That’s pretty f up; I guess.  Tho that’s not the point.  The point is is that Ima have that same phantasy again at this time of my life and it feels like Ima move backwards into my teens from my twenties once more; at like twenty one.

This w kinda make me feel that my hedgehog pathway w open bc it heralded, brought in, the shutting down of it.  I feel this is super dope and possibly evidence of immortality.

To Immortality

K