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Ima have coffee rn; it’s two pm

Coffee’s on; I never got the bins out.  They normally come well after two, so I do it at like seven in the morning; they came at seven.  My neighbour spoke to me.  I feel rly passionate about doing my best to make sure that I get the bins out for them, so I set an alarm for three pm the day before; when I get back.

A guy just said to me, hi; how’s it going, next to me at the checkout.  Ima say it freaked me out a bit, I feel.

Got my coffee now.  It’s kinda a bit like eating.  When I eat, I like to be hungry.  When I have my coffee I like to leave it like six hours so that I appreciate it; more.  I keep falling asleep just around when Ima have one, so I have like one less; I like that.

It’s about emotions.  I say to myself to listen to my emotions; that keeps the nasty stuff out of my head.  Sometimes thoughts creep in tho it is people telling me how much they appreciate me; so I let those ones in.  Like my neighbour, that he w telling me that I had done the bins for like six years, I guess, and had only messed up twice.  The other time w at Christmas when they came a day early.

In Other News

I told 5.5, I needed something that when people read it they thought, I hadn’t thought of it like that, that’s true.  I need to read that chat and see w it came up w.  It told me that w I w asking w for something deeper than a mechanism section, actual truth.  I feel that w sell better.  Ima not make any claims on my products, bc that doesn’t bode well, it has to be something that people have discovered that supports the kinda unique nature of them.  I w kinda hoping that on social media there w be a post like this that I c take inspiration from.  Ik I have to quote the source if I use it, I feel.

So I went ahead and asked it in the end anyways.  Ima not worry about it; I never worry about the page, I feel.

I missed Fortnight on ProjectBRAiNROT bc I fell asleep, as happens a lot, I feel.  She is on tonight.  I also want to catch OhStella.  I feel that she is super dope; and someone gifted me a months subscription, w is always super when that happens.  I said thank you bc I had an issue when someone didn’t get a thank you off of me and w miffed, unhappy.  It’s rly just a simple act of sending a message later.  Ima not always watch the chat so may miss it.  It kinda still bugs me ngl.

So I tell myself to just feel my emotions, like I say and it keeps me stable.  Sometimes the words pop into my head like they did when I w in the dentist’s chair; that w okay, it is super intimate.  To be real I didn’t wanna leave kinda had to keep it dope.

To Keeping It Dope

K