It’s seven pm, Ima have coffee at midnight
I have been working on the page. I feel Ima narrow it down to like the first paragraph in the Mechanism section. I need to ask 5.5 if it’s too strong for my Taylor style. I also saw a place on my chat, where it said that there is one thing that a make the page exceptional; I need to look at that.
I’ve excluded all the other screenshots that I took of the chat and am able to just get on w it now unfettered, undistracted.
Ima be having CBD in the evenings. I make myself some Matcha and then smoke some. I have some Bubblegum coming tomorrow w is my favourite. I feel that Ima only have it when I get home. I w listening to some old music; White Zombie; AstroCreep and Welcome to Planet MF. I used to love these albums when I w like twenty, maybe nineteen. There w so much music that I liked.
I found a new ASMR; she is just called Sophie. The tingles are strong w this one. I wanted to tell her, as she is a new creator, tho I didn’t want to be like a little off or whatever.
I never went to Croquet today. I w walking down and just felt like Ima not make it so turned back. It scored high on empathy tho meant I missed my friends. I went to Hampton first. I had enough time to get lunch before going w w good and I had like half an hour to just chill.
Tbh I feel like I am young again; tho it is just like being twenty; w is good bc Ima enjoy the music in the way I did back then. I just feel I need a little more to get under that barrier into my teens.
Tbh I had lost it at that age due to unhealthy living; even before that. I remember one time I w standing near my school field and just realised that I had lost it. I felt that I w never get it back again and it w super depressing and sad, I felt. I guess it’s okay to get it back together at my age; better late than never right. Tbh I don’t feel that anyone else has. I have never k of anyone who has gotten their youth consciousness back. C I be the first; well Ima damn straight be the first; has anyone ever heard of anyone who has become kinda immortal; such a thing has never existed; and to feel that it is just possible by following J’s commandments and sticking w it through everything; like all along it w written long ago how to do it and it isn’t that complicated I feel. I guess the thing of it is is that no one ever had proof that these commandments work. That’s w I w to do for people. Ik that there are people out there who don’t want to grow up, I feel. I w like to give them the tools to stem the haemorrhage of youth life force, I feel. It w have been much easier for me had I just followed them right out my teens. I feel I w never have transitioned to adult consciousness and it’s consummate, typical loss of Neurones.
I am shocked by the loss of Neurones that accompanies, goes w people who hit forty; tho I feel that I have been sprouting them like f magic mushrooms for a long time now. There is no living person who c have told me that, I feel and how to prevent it.
Tbh the effects of following J’s commandments have been way beyond my wildest dreams; so far, and I honestly w like to see it through to one hundo youth I feel; lucky to remember how good it w, my memory returning of the times I spent as a younger person and becoming more and more aware of the truth of that as I progress, continue. Out of Town that little book have so much power I feel.
To J
K
Miss K 