Hey

It’s about half seven am, Ima have coffee nine-ish.

I w thinking about teen prostitutes in the eighties, except they were actually kids w w being ra by Pakistani illegal immigrants.  If there is something rotten in society, some major injustice; then Ima just wait thirty years for things to change.  I got that from Aryssa btw.

So rly that means that things are better now than they were then.  Society w not as fair.  Clearly kids were just being dehumanised for wearing w they want, I feel; ;like some kinda Muslim society where people are not allowed to show their bodies I feel; and now every kid dresses like that, I feel.

I feel it shows w happens when people start to change, like doing something differently and how they are dehumanised for it in society before like thirty years down the line everyone is doing it and it seems kinda ridiculous.

W makes me think of the future and how it will be way better than now, I feel.  It kinda flies in the face of me feeling that society w broken and that things had gotten worse.  I feel that yes, society is broken tho society w heal to some degree in the distant future; always getting better.

I feel that the issue now is the same as it w then, nsfw; probably something that w hamper society till the end of time.  Idk

Tho

I found myself judging.  It w people describing w I w doing.  I don’t like it and I feel angry.  I thought about racism, something that hampered me for a minute and how I w have the same feelings that people were being offensive; and then fall into a pit of judgement that Ima not climb out of.

It describes something that allows me the option of holding a better energy.  Clearly there is something around my internal state that I need to level up; Idk.  Trying as I might to find some way of telling people that I don’t like it, and falling on deaf ears, inevitably, eventually mine also.

Kinda in awe that something w|i me c change; haven’t I changed enough how they a be more progress to make; me want peace now.  That implies hella struggle to get there and that I don’t like; albeit that that means close to the goal of no more cortical awareness in my mind.

One Thing

One thing for sure is that..  Ima have to carry on taking crap as I have done.  I’m aware that one peep out of me, w mean feeling in danger of being attacked even, losing my place in the world.  Aware that this is of utmost, super importance.  Kinda a let down bc I just want to stop the things that people say that tick me off.  Tbh it has petered out to a point where it doesn’t hit like it used to.  I guess in for a penny in for a pound; so just keep taking that sh until there is no more sh to take.

That’s a concept in and of itself, that they run out of sh to throw at me.  As much as it hurts, I must admit that it feels like that none of w w said, w about me.  That’s a feeling that c turn into a whole reality, kid reality, where there is like this deeper understanding of peoples’ motives.  Like when I w a kid and saw on the news Kid Prostitutes, and thought, that’s total horse sh, what the f.

To Horse Sh

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