Hey

It’s about three pm, Ima have coffee at six

I feel that I w bullied today, bc I have felt this way before and back then it was.  I said, if you’re bullying me please stop and he didn’t I feel.  I feel that it has left me ill; that I may be hallucinating soon and may be already.

I felt that when I got home someone w hiring a hit on me; while I w making lunch.  Like these are guys who I feel have cuckood one of my neighbours and I felt he w saying who a live here

I rang the Samaritans and I hope that that has stopped the hallucinations that Ima die, from starting.

In Other News

The business is going well tho I have been too stressed to do it a lot.  I wonder if living here is taking its toll on my health and that, it is being scared of my neighbours that is causing all these symptoms and things I am hearing, I feel.

I feel like Ima tell my tutor w is going on on Thur.  I don’t like the thought of lying to him that everything is okay.  There were witnesses so it should be super quick to resolve this, I feel.

Then there’s my psychiatrist tomorrow who I want to tell in great detail how I am feeling.

It’s nice to feel that there is a lot of support around me and that if someone w doing something like that they w all be against it, I feel.  I also feel that it may have been a diabolical swoop for power at the group; based on massive dehumanisation of me, that I didn’t deserve self esteem; based on burning hate, I feel.

I w hearing about serial killers and that this one killer w targeting people in yellow houses, need I say anymore, tho I feel that all this has become relevant.

I rly want to be left in peace and hope this w get resolved.

I just wanna get through this, tho if this is bc of where I am living then there is only one option; two actually, tho Ima concentrate on taking care of myself first.

I guess things came to a head, I feel.

I never remember people behaving so wac.  Like when I w a kid there w not so much trouble all the time I feel.  I feel like it follows me around

Also I felt my hedgehog pathway open last night, and when I got up I couldn’t see any grey hair on the side of my head.

To Being Strong

K