Hey

It’s seven pm, I just had coffee and lunch

I stayed in today, I just didn’t feel well; not like ill or anything just like I couldn’t walk all the way to the thing I w gonna do; did go down the shops a couple of times tho, to get some items that were only gonna on for this week; a coffee pot and an Air Fryer.  My frying pan also gave up the ghost, so I have one of those coming.  I chose another enamel one even tho it may only last about a year like this one did.  I thought to myself maybe just only use a soft cloth on it.

Ima kinda think I w right all along about a few things, like that if I got all up in someone’s face that I w be losing all the vibes.  As I had only just attained, gotten the skin zhè, it is only right that I stay in this reality for ever and not lose it, I feel.  That w mean making it totally to being in youth reality; and the more I embark, set out on this journey the more I realise that Ima never judge anyone, for anything.  Judgements crept into my mind a little bit this morning, and I tried my best to keep them out, Idek why they are hounding me like this.  It’s true to say that they have always hounded me a little in the mornings, tho I guess..  I feel that the time is coming that I just reject them altogether; and the funny thing is is that it’s not about saying that thinking these things about people are, is wrong, na, na, na; it’s about just adjusting my brain jex the way I want it; and also owning that the triggers w stop once I have enough Neurones to realise that people probably aren’t as sh as I think, even tho I have had people I have felt were hella Masoganistic, just unleashing their felt right to abuse women.

Also, I love when people stand up for me; it’s much better than me sorting it out for myself.  This also goes to that I must not go bat sh on them.

It’s Sunday tomorrow so I won’t be working on the business.  It always feels like such a letdown that Ima not get to do that, tho I feel Ima follow the commandments.  Tbh there is no point rushing the business I feel as I need to be in the Flow State to get any of this sh done; just like Forex trading where there is the possibility of over trading if doing more than a half hour every day, I feel.

In Other News

I got myself a blender and a couple of flasks so that Ima make smoothies for the winter and take them out w me so that Ima not get cold bc of lack of energy, I feel.  It also may save me a bit of money from not snacking on all sorts of bad sh.  I do a lot of walking so w be out in the cold, I feel.

The coffee pot I got also makes delicious coffee, w the Columbian beans that I got from ALDI.

So it’s all about staying where I am.  I must not try and get all these masoganistic people away from me and axe their saying what feels like sh aimed at trying to control me and force me into a subservient, slave to men role, I feel.

It could just be that men are more psychopathic than women and the constant abuse from the way they talk to us just beats me down so much that I feel like some kinda joke that a never stand up for myself or have any power at all, I feel.  That’s literally how that talk feels like it is taking away my power and hard to just ignore, tho Ima do exactly that.

Wondering also if men suffer the same thing like women are trying to take away their power and make them just trash that must do their bidding and be their gimp, I feel.

To Keeping My Vibe

K