It’s midnight, I have coffee rn
I never freaked the f out today. I spent the whole time chatting w my friends at knit and natter. Then I got home and tried to make this recipe in the air fryer that just didn’t work to be fair. The rice never got cooked even after ages. Ima use a pan next time.
I feel my feelings coming back to me. Ik that this process takes years tho I feel I am moving in the right direction. I still get triggered walking into Town every morning it feels; uncomfortable looks from people who I feel have a personality disorder; I even asked myself if everyone has one who lives in my area. I’m also getting blatantly stared at by people now w I feel upset when it happens. I had a glow up and feel that now people treat me like sh bc they sense my self esteem; I feel Ima not win. I feel that peoples’ behaviour just got steadily more and more rude the more my self esteem rose so I never got to shed feeling triggered; it sucked like f, and still does; and the thought of people never leaving me the f alone just feels depressing as f. Someone said that the city centre is a sh hole, they may have been right. That’s where I wanna live tho. I saw another flat that w super cheap and maybe rly nice to live. Tho the estate agents in this town are not putting the measurements in, I’m rly not surprised, I feel.
I feel that people are broken when they enter work. I hope every employer is not like this. Could just be that they have to do this bc the staff are so f toxic that they w be trying to get their hands on the bosses wages. This is freaking me the f out Ima stop
There are nice areas tho. I had a look at the suburbs, nice area. I liked the feeling of imagining living in a home like this. Super cheap as well for a one bedroom house.
I watched Aryssa for a while. I told her that I have emotionally unstable personality disorder so am retarded some of the time; she said, same.
I learned that Italians have spent the whole of history taking advantage of the Slavs, I feel. Just sucks how the west takes advantage of developing countries. I feel we have to or they w rise and turn this planet into a total sh hole.
It sucks how there are evil people out there I feel, whether in this city or globally; why do these people even exist. I feel there is the constant risk of the world being led by evil people w ASPD, not withstanding, Trump could have it, I feel. It’s funny how under the pretence of protecting us from them he c start a war that leads to them gaining power, I feel. Hate is hate no matter the rationale, reason, I feel.
Immigration is an issue; they do bring corruption and increase the murder rate of our countries I feel; easy to understand why Australia doesn’t have it. I feel that Jesus’s commandments built the free world the way it is and countries that have never embraced it’s, their value, c undo that to some extent, some amount. That’s honestly why I feel that the developing countries are so whack bc they have never had his righteousness. India is different tho I feel, bc they had Krsna way before we even had Jesus. I feel that they never are a threat to their neighbours w is one thing I have noticed about developing countries w is that they always are fighting w them, I feel.
I don’t feel that poverty keeps them fighting w their neighbours; I feel that them fighting w their neighbours is what keeps them in poverty.
To Dealing W Wac People
K
Miss K 