Hey

It’s eight pm, Ima have coffee at midnight

Emotionally stable today I felt.  Ima not say that that w be how it a be for like always.  It’s rly just taking how things have been for the last while, like six months or so and just carrying that on, extrapolating it.  So my life, as it is, is w Ima expect in the next month.

That w mean struggling to work on the business, having relapses a lot, I feel tho feeling more settled in my groups and appreciating the people more and the time I spend w them; w is w I like, I like feeling a more emotional closeness; it rly feels like I am getting the best out of our interactions, I like being around them as well.  I have Mahjong tomorrow.

Ima hope that the alarm clock I want w be there tomorrow, it should be.  It is a bluetooth speaker w w mean that Ima play my asmr through it, w w be nice.  They had one before that wasn’t as good and I never got it, thinking that Ima get one just as cheap tho w wrong; now I get an even better one, w is nice.

I wore my jacket today.  I like it.  I love that TNF have a bargain version, I feel.  There is the need to stay dry and it allows me to do this; and I wonder if they have the most breathable jacket, bc it’s not that waterproof so the reviews say, so maybe they have gone for breathability over that, tho I have always been dry; they do fail tho after about a year or two; w c actually mean that they are much better, I feel

I’ve saved as much as I c this month tho the jacket took a chunk of my savings, still trying to get enough together for the iPad Mini in October, feeling pretty confident that the leaks are right that there w be one, and that in about a week it w be unveiled that it is indeed coming out.  The screen width is perfect for up close, taking up the whole of my vision.  The height is more w 9:16 than 9:21.5 tho the hight should be okay; then there is working on it as my computer.  It should be a good screen size for f around w Zoomable; all the softwares that I use should be rly good on it.  The Safari is better bc it works w Passwords tho it doesn’t like work as a desktop w is a bugbear, complaint of mine.  I feel it’s a pretty poorly designed browser and actually not the quality that I expect from Apple, I feel.  While I’m on the subject I w just urge them to fix the f clock as it is the biggest loss of customers I feel.  I rly want them to delete all the code and start from the basement I feel, being the only way to eliminate all the problems.

In Other News

I’ve well and truly fallen in love w ALDI; there are some pretty toxic as f people in there tho I feel.  I’ve learned that some people are wac as f; the things I’ve heard people say to me, holy sh like they are not aware at all of w the vast majority of people are like yk; at all like in any way whatsoever, I feel.  Don’t even get me started on this Town I feel.  Like I watch JFHailey and Aryssa and Rin and feel that nobody in this town is..  how the f do I even explain it, it’s like they don’t have empathy, they’re die hard gaslighting champs, I feel.

G bless me for making myself younger mentally tho it leaves me feeling that Ima be emotionally starved here.  Ima give it up Idk how to get my point across.

I yearn tho to be heard; like f.  It’s on my vision board now; Idk if that means moving out of here.  I have decided to not buy a place tho; for two reasons, that I may want to move and bc the rich don’t buy, I feel.

I want to get my ass out to Australia as soon as Ima afford the ticket and get a work visa.

To Australia and Emotion Aware People

K