It’s nine thirty pm, I just had coffee
I w more emotionally stable today and I got on well w the people at Mahjong. I moved to a different table bc we had new people starting and I liked it; I liked them. I w fishing on Gates of Heaven, w w nice.
I have done a little bit on the business. I have the reviews now that I want to use. I now need to get 5.5 to highlight them up so that they are ready to be put in. I have like a ton of text that I need to put in, mostly from the Mechanism section and it’s kinda building up, tho there isn’t much more now that I need to do, so it won’t clutter up my pages document that I have to make notes on.
I must check everything that I have written down that I must do and I must get 5.5 to give me a detailed image of w my Mechanism section should look like, bc it has a lot of text that needs to be broken up. I have named the spacing in it, Mira tho need to have one for Desktop.
I like to name things in 5.5, that way Ima just use the name and tell her to do that to the piece of text I need improving.
I have been thinking about someone w aspd and how to put them in their place; tho problem is tho, that I have lots of people like that saying stupid sh to me and I feel that it’s best not to say anything. Like I said before I had one girl put him down when he spoke to me like I w a piece of sh, I feel.
There are definitely some people out there who are way beyond bat sh crazy; it’s kinda scary. I thought back to the killer who targeted people in yellow houses today and just thought about how crazy I felt that person w. I feel my brother may be this nuts, bc he wet the bed as a child; so I need to make sure that I don’t set him off I feel. That’s the thing; If these people are just waiting to go on a ki spree then is it ethical for me to start that process in motion; it’s a mash. I feel that people like this are like one in twenty. Maybe I got unlucky w the people I met and there won’t be another for like four hundred people. I feel that one in twenty people absolutely can’t accept fallibility and it leans towards psychopathy or is it outright, fully, Idk.
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I thought about attractiveness and w w the secret sauce; like different people find it in different ways I feel. I w listening to Ellie Goulding and felt that she found it through sc a ton of people. I feel that Cherie Lorraine found it through psychology and prioritising herself more and more until she had found her power. I kinda feel that there are many ways to get there. I feel I found it through following J’s commandments. I also feel that I got out of an abusive situation. It kinda makes a mockery of people who think it’s their way or the Goddamn f highway I feel. I’m not big on manipulation I feel; that people should be allowed to be themselves. On Tumblr like nearly a decade ago I found a post that said being alone can rly be the level up. I w wanting to get out of w I felt w abuse and tried it out; boy did it turn out to be the truth, I feel. I guess I found that I function much better when not being controlled, I feel. I have the power to make my own choices and be authentic and just have the balls, the moxie to just go after the things I want. I feel its important to keep this sh to myself so people can’t or don’t talk sh to me like manipulative, I’m always right, people can tend to do, I feel; that they just are looking for narcissistic supply and I shouldn’t let that damage my choices. I feel it’s rly sad how some people a only find happiness from downright ruining other peoples’ sh.
To Staying In My Power
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Miss K 