It’s three pm, Ima have coffee at six
I feel that Apple are such ba; the clock on the iPhone never tells the time, I feel. I w just cleaning up and have no idea how long I w doing it for.
I got pretty far today w|o losing it, till I got locked into the club; it f kinda f me up a bit.
I feel that Apple has lost control of a lot of people w ASPD who work there; blatantly refusing to fix things like the clock, and a whole host of other issues that I feel take the pi. Did you know that slide to type can’t find the word, the, with both hands; and the shift key on the iPhone very often won’t work. I’m trying my best not to be angry.
In Other News
I’ve been slowly plodding away w the reviews. It has been a long process highlighting them up, bc 5.5 kept getting sh wrong. I have learned that I have to show it the image it has just made for it to know that it hasn’t executed, done the things it actually said to me that it w gonna do. I don’t need an image generator to do the highlighting; it’s a graphics job; that’s good, as I have already changed the lightness of the text ready to amend, change it like that. It w be the first run and I w have to make a note of the colour code that it put on the grey font.
Ima hope that Rin is on today.
I ordered some headphones; I feel that the ALDI ones were sh; kinda disappointed for opening my bluetooth speaker. They were supposed to come last night tho I got scared that my neighbours were trying to use me to get into a flat that has no buzzer. I never answered it and found that it w the delivery person. It pissed me off and f me up for at least six hours; I’ve had enough of it, I feel.
I must not think that I am better than people who psychology I feel w say are abusive. At one point today I wasn’t judging at all I feel. I wasn’t thinking at all actually. Ik that it w the way; there w no doubting it, I felt and feel
I feel that being a genuine victim of abuse has left me super duper f up. I am ready to own that there is something w w me that means I just kinda look down on people; and that just bc they are abusive I feel, and this town is a sh hole I feel, that changes nothing, I must not do it. I feel a little f up, rn bc I feel I said that and the windows are open. I get f up so often I feel; literally every day.
I’ve found that between midnight and three I don’t wanna watch tv. I just lay there thinking. At that time it all feels like such rubbish that is not worth my attention.
I must own that in a way I am the problem. Yes abuse damages. Yes it probably is f me right up living in such a toxic town, I feel. I mustn’t judge tho. How Ima fix w is w w me when I am just not open to healing it, I feel.
Tbh the business is going great and I feel Ima not do it anywhere else like I do it here. I feel too scared to change that.
To Not Judging Abusive People
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