It’s seven pm; had coffee a little while ago
There’s something I wanna explain tho don’t wanna come off inappropriate.
It’s like a cu feeling; Idek how to describe it. Anyone who’s taken ginseng may k how I, it feels. I feel it kinda feels there same bc the drugs do the same thing; except Mulberry extract is not a stimulant.
It has built up over like about two months. Like there biological pathway, the effect has been getting stronger the whole time
Bottom up, stimulating the hedgehog pathway from underneath, unlike ginseng that probably stimulates it directly, Idek.
I wanted to stop bc I w having these hallucinations that Ima die; tho now it feels this way I just don’t wanna lose the feeling; it’s how I look when people see me. When I w on ginseng this girl in a group of girls said, did you see that.
Just gonna hit my business for two minutes
Okay I’m back
One of my text boxes is strangely large, dk what that’s about ¯\_(ツ)_/¯; like the whole marketing process, ngl.
So like Ima get like this triggering feeling. It happens; and it feels like if Ima work on the business Ima break; like a little twiggy snap. The thing tho is tho that it happens w asmr videos. It just went snap btw. It’s like if I watch this then it’s a trigger me; so I put another one on and I feel the same way; so Ik it’s me. Ima have like a ten minute break or leave it, I may be tired.
Ik I’ve done hella work today. If I were to look through the work I’ve done there w be hella there tho it’s not like in a 5.5 chat so Ima not rlly be able to check it
I’ve been f up lately. Idk what they f’s been w w me. I’ve had the flute tho so that’s probably it; and just skirting over that, the feeling that Ima get those f agonising hallucinations again.
I thought about it. Nothing changes quick in psychology or consciousness, that’s the hard truth of it; Ima get through this landing page tho.
I may not need to learn css. Spitballing tho it w probably make the page look more premium, having like the same row gaps appearing through the pages, like here and there; instead of it liking totally random, w I w be if Ima just guess it and ask 5.5 if it looks alright.
In Other News
Been blasting through Outer Banks; nearly one undo onto the new new; can’t wait like f to see what the f.. Ima not spoil it, tho Ima say that something is unresolved and I need to k what happens.
To _____
K
