Month: Sep 2026

It’s five pm, Ima have coffee at eight I feel I’ve been dealing w a lot of ra.  I’ve been getting lascivious comments that felt like they came from that kinda person, fr.  I feel that it affected my mental health pretty badly tho I never had the hallucinations Ima die, probably bc I took it easy…

It’s two thirty am, I’m having coffee Yesterday I kinda felt a relapse coming on.  I w thinking about The Gospel Of Thomas and that usually happens then.  I also started hallucinating while I w at Knit and Natter; tho Ik that they were hallucinations and just ignored them.  That’s the the thing w hallucinations, that if I…

It’s about seven pm, Ima have coffee at midnight First I categorised thoughts as being either soft or hard thoughts.  Now I’m feeling that hard thoughts are too dark; that makes it easier to stop thinking them.  I realised that I w thinking too much and just needed to slow my thoughts down.  This worked super well.  I w…

It’s half nine pm, I just had coffee Well I stabbed my finger good; when chopping an onion.  It always happens when I am thinking; usually some stupid sh talking trash about someone.  This time I w fantasising about being a chef and telling someone how to chop, yea no kidding. I f myself up yesterday by…

It’s eight thirty, Ima have coffee in a couple of minutes I feel so f crazy w all the f up sh that’s going through my head.  I guess that’s why it’s good to let it out.  I guess let it out is probably the wrong way to say it as it has the connotation that Ima…

It’s nine thirty pm, I just had coffee I w more emotionally stable today and I got on well w the people at Mahjong.  I moved to a different table bc we had new people starting and I liked it; I liked them.  I w fishing on Gates of Heaven, w w nice. I have done a…

It’s eight pm, Ima have coffee at midnight Emotionally stable today I felt.  Ima not say that that w be how it a be for like always.  It’s rly just taking how things have been for the last while, like six months or so and just carrying that on, extrapolating it.  So my life, as it is, is…

It’s midnight, I have coffee rn I never freaked the f out today.  I spent the whole time chatting w my friends at knit and natter.  Then I got home and tried to make this recipe in the air fryer that just didn’t work to be fair.  The rice never got cooked even after ages.  Ima use a pan…